Heart Broken

       The holidays are supposed to be about family, memories, celebration, and renewal. I got the news late last night that one of my previous students child unexpectedly passed away. This child was born two days before Taylor was, and they spent time in the NICU together. I cannot put into words what my thoughts are right now completely.

    The first thing I did automatically was run up to Taylor and hug her tight. I could not imagine what it would be like if something suddenly happened to her. If I couldn't see or hear her laugh, could possibly destroy me. I'm not so sure I would make it very long without her. I have already had to endure the loss of one child and I know for a fact that I probably could not mentally get through that again. It's been 2.7 years ago and it still feels like it was yesterday. My former student was my only companion at the hospital during those hard weeks of extended stay right after Taylor was born.  Like my child hers had many difficulties during birth. Our children was in the incubators side-by-side. Each day, brought both hope and sorrow as our children struggled to make it through.  

    I had always expected Taylor and her child to start school at the same time and possibly become the best of friends. We have been at the playground on several occasions and Taylor and the other child had played together. Time is never promised. 

    Hold your kids tight folks! You never know what could happen in the blink of an eye. My heart pours out for her and her family.  

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