Christmas Day

     We still have no baby goats as of 9 o'clock. The countdown still continues as I closely monitor all my does. Today has been a very eventful, exciting, memorable day. My child didn't have many gifts, but she did have quality gifts. The sheer excitement in her face was worth every penny. It's not about how much money you spend on your children or how many gifts they have under the tree. It's all about quality family time and celebrating another holiday together.

    This Christmas was a little bit different this year. I was disappointed that my grandmother refused to come and join us and chose to spend Christmas by herself. I know it must've been lonely up on the hill. As she continues to push us all away, I hope she realizes that we do love her and we want her around. One thing I've noticed that really has been an issue for me..... is her distancing herself from us. She has no one other than my mom and myself.

    MY BEST FRIEND, AND SISTER COME TO VISIT FOR A LITTLE WHILE TODAY. SHE HAS SUPPLIED ME WITH SOME NEW MOTIVATION. I HAVE NOT SEEN HER IN ABOUT SEVEN MONTHS AND MAN THE TRANSFORMATION SHE HAS MADE IS PHENOMENAL. I WOULD SAY SHE'S DROPPED AROUND 40 EXTRA POUNDS SINCE THE LAST TIME I SAW HER. SHE IS NOW A CANDIDATE FOR SKIN REMOVAL SURGERY AND I AM SO PROUD OF HER. This has really sparked me into gear about getting serious with losing weight and bettering myself.  We have always done things together and to see her move on without me really motivates me to make a better effort. The ball is in my court, and I have to do this on my own.

    I will not go over what we got for Christmas. Sadly, there was not a goat under the tree for me, but my husband did a really good job this year. He never really noticed how much your spouse really pays attention to you until it is time for them to gift you something from the heart. I think this was his first successful Christmas when it comes to giftgiving. This is something else I have to work on as a spouse. I really struggle personally with giving thoughtful gifts. I like to give presents that are useful in the moment and are of some use. If you're ever on my shopping list just so you know, I will get your shoe size, pants, size, and shirt size. 


    Mama had a good day too today. She didn't have no highs or lows in her emotional roller coaster. It was good to see her smile and enjoy the day watching Taylor enjoying her gifts. I just wish all Christmases are like this from now on. Merry Christmas to all of you. I hope your day was filled with happy moments. The only thing I was missing was my child who didn't make it. I think I will forever wonder why it would be like to have both my twins alive and well. I can only hope and pray that her and Taylor would've been the best of friends. I'm thankful for what I do have though! 


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