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Somedays

      Today, I realized that I cannot do it all. I have so much on my plate that it is tipping over and I'm ill and cranky all the time. Getting around four hours of sleep per night is slowly draining me. Mom told me Taylor didn't choose to come into this world, but honestly I didn't pick to do this basically alone either. I have no family unit to help with anything. Somedays... I wish I could disappear just for a moment to take a breather. Do other moms feel burned out too? Is this normal? I cannot even go to therapy because I have no one to watch her during my sessions. I haven't been since I battled PPD like my life depended on it.      Somedays... I just want more. More family, more friends, more connection beyond my four walls. All I have is my 30 minute reading sessions at night. It doesn't always do the trick. I'll be talking to my doctor about all of this next week, if I can get someone to watch Taylor. If not, she will be going with me. I'm not mis...

The Butterfly Garden by Dot Hutchison

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    I usually shy away from books like this, but I'm glad I took a chance out on it. This twisted story will literally keep you on your toes and the unexpected ending was written to perfection. With all the stress of motherhood, reading has been my one safe haven in this storm of life. I'm glad there are books out there that completely captivate me cover to cover. Are names even really all that  important? You'll have to read to get comment.      My grandfather had a few butterflies in glass, but this book will completely turn you against that hobby. I wonder where the  author got her inspiration? Without saying... I would rate this book a 5 out of 5 stars and highly recommend you add this to your personal reading list.   

New Beginnings by D.A. Young

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I'm unsure where to begin with this review. I'm even unsure if I like this book as a novella addition to the series. I'm sure it did add to the story, but Avery's character is absolutely driving me insane. The narrator is terrible and cannot really distinguish between the characters. Thank goodness, I can always hit rewind to figure out what character is actually speaking.     I was a little lost in how this progresses the story. I feel like every character is caught up in their own thoughts, and honestly that creates havoc on the overall plot. All the unnecessary sex scenes also takes away from the series. I don't want to read and/or listen to that many sex scenes. Like get a room and move on. Have some class!     Overall, I would give this book a 2.5 out of 5 star rating due to the constant bombardment of sex. The author must me going  through something to have added all this extra smut.   

Tourism

      I understand that tourism brings in a bunch of revenue for our small community. Sometimes, especially during this time of year, I become instantly annoyed that I cannot move or get to places within a reasonable time because of people visiting our area to see the foliage change. I understand that where they're from they may not get the fall leaf effect. What usually takes 15 minutes to commute from work up to where I pick my daughter up from my husband in the afternoons... took 45 minutes this afternoon.     From own liquor, stopping to take full length videos of the elk two people who blatantly stopped in the middle of the road and got out of their cars to take family fun photos. Where is the decency? Some of us live this year around and have jobs and children to get to. I'm just not a fan of the Florida tags I see everywhere. The speed limits are posted, but you can expect those tags to be going 10 and under or stopped everywhere to take photos. I even tr...

Thoughts

      October is by far one of my favorite months, but man... she cannot decide if it's going to be Fall or Summer. May this season is somewhat bipolar. That isn't an insensitive comment. I'm having to dress for three different seasons each day. I'm freezing my tail off in the morning and dying of a heat stroke in the afternoon.      Where do I see myself? I'm going crazy at the moment due to the weather changes throughout each day. I cannot seem to find the correct wardrobe to wear to work each morning. Nothing seems to be working right for me. Currently, I even carrying a coat and extra  deodorant just in case I start to overly sweat.      Teaching is a VERY stressful job. I'm not complaining, but the general public doesn't understand that we have lives too. I get so tired of people  saying, "oh, you get all your holidays off." Well, honestly, I'm using that time to regulate my system again. It takes me three to four days just to ...

Sweet Obsession by D.A Young

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 Have you ever just needed a book that totally took you away from your current reality? This is your book if you are wanting a romance story that will sweep you off your feet. Honestly Jackson is the best male character with a southern draw to have ever existed. I just needed this book in my life. There is nothing like the love of a true southern man.      Life has been so hectic lately that reading has been my only way to just chill out. This is a massive shout out to Young for this fine piece of literature! Honestly, we all struggle, so reading a book where our female main character is basically worshipped was on the menu. I switched between reading and listening to this novel. As I was completing farm chores, I would listen to the audio version of it. I think even the goats enjoyed their snippet of the story. :)      Obviously, I'm gonna write this book a five out of five stars. I did not like the over usage of spicy scenes, but that comes with the ...

The Haven by Carol Lynch Williams

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  Sometimes we read books for fun, and sometime we read them to find out the "why." Today's book was the "why." I'm left speechless by the ending. So much is left unsaid or untold. Is there a second book to clear up all of my questions? I feel as if this could be a whole series. I want Abigail and Daniel to get their revenge. Did his new legs really work or did he die of infection?       Shiloh, our main character, has left me questioning everything I know about personal choices. Would you save a loved one if it meant that their spare parts were from a live donor who didn't have a choice? Could you make the decision to sacrifice one for the other? I sat here and really put some epic thought into this. It's not everyday that a book really makes me think!      I would rate this book a solid 5 out of 5 stars. The deeper meaning and thoughts that this book provided was beyond my expectations!   

Weather Changes

      With this weather front that is moving through, I have stress that is slowly building up. It brings back so many memories of Helene. We didn't get hit like our surrounding counties, but I can remember the sheer devastation that occurred.      I was so stressed out that I did a little prepping. I bought up livestock feed, water for us, extra batteries, gas, easy foods to fix, Colman fuel, and our medications. I don't want to ever be as unprepared as we were last time. The  chain of supplies broke down with flooding and it took days to get essentials.      Even my goats acted strange all day. They stayed extra close and seemed to cling to me as I left the lower field. I hope everyone is safe as this hurricane passes through. The coastal towns got hit hard. 

Dollywood Adventures Vs Toddler

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I was pleasantly surprised at how well my toddler handled Dollywood yesterday. She loved every minute of it. Apparently, Brittany Spears was also at the park yesterday too! That would account for the VERY large crowd of people that came at the end of the day.   Taylor's favorite part was Wings of Prey. My child sat and watched the entire show without having a meltdown. Now, don't come at me about wasting money. All I had to pay was parking. Taylor got in for free.  I'm usually the one who takes up all the permission slips, so I usually get a season pass for free via the school.   I was humbled though. My weight didn't prevent me from riding anything thing, but it was a tight fit on three of the rides for the smaller kids. Taylor had to have someone ride with her, so I did. I will be working on living a healthier life. My child needs someone there to ride everything with.   Taylor didn't like the overcrowding. There should be a cut off as to how many pe...

Speech Thearpy

      Today was Taylor's first appointment and meeting with the speech therapist. They want her to go in by herself, but I'm very apprehensive about letting my three  year old go in without me. She isn't verbal enough to really tell me if anything went astray. I don't really know how to voice this yet, but I will be saying something next week. I wouldn't let her go in today without me. Behind closed doors I don't know what could go on.      Do any of you guys have the same feelings? I don't want a complete stranger dealing with my child without me. I don't know these people, and I'm NOT a trusting person. It's strange to ask this of parents and children right? I cannot be the only parent who has had this issue. Any suggestions?      She fully participated and was willingly answering all of her questions. Taylor played and named all the flash cards. She is missing most of her hard beginning sounds: T, R, W, K, and Ds seemed to be the toug...