Life of the Party

      Lonely is the person who is in a marriage but never gets to see their spouse. Lonely is being surrounded by people every day but still have that deep seek feeling of being alone. No one knows what is truly going on inside their head and no one really cares.      I think I'm at the point in my life where I'm just lonely....   I spend a majority of my time either at work or with my child. It's really weird to put it into words, and I don't want to sound like I'm complaining. We work opposite shifts and at this point my friends at work know me on a deeper level than my spouse. He sees me a total of ten to twelve hours per week, so our bond has also dwindled. We used to spend evenings together after Taylor had fallen asleep. Now, I spend that last hours buried in a book to avoid my own thoughts. Could this be depression again, but with a slightly different mask?      Don't worry....      If it gets to that point... I'll ...

      It's been a while since I've read one of Spark's books, so give me some grace if you're a fan. Usually, I adore his various love spell binding books, but not so much with this one. The ground work was there, but it was certainly missing something.      Well, let's start off with the ended so there is no confusion. I absolutely hated the ending of this book. Why on earth would the two main characters part ways. I know we don't always have to have a "happy" ending, but dang... come on let Wren find her happiness. I also didn't like the jumping around constantly. Wren needed more substance to her over all character. Ghost or not, why didn't we have more chapters in her perspective?      I felt like he was going for one of his classic love stories, but fell short with following through. I miss sitting and actually reading because it provides me with a different level of enjoyment and contentment. Remain, although it was a total let dow...

     Unfortunately, my child is still struggling in the debts of despair with RSV. It has taken every ounce of energy that she has or could muster to make it out of this. With every passing day, she just seems to grow sicker. We have to even as far as taking her to the ER multiple times. With each visit, they tell us that her body just has to get through it. My toddler has been battling this sickness for days. She is weak, tired, and cranky from the incessant coughing.     Does anyone have any tips or tricks on how to alleviate her symptoms?  She's currently on three medications and they are not working. I guess we will be going back to the pediatrician again for the same exact issues. At this point I think they need to update her diagnosis and say that it's something else.

      As I'm slowly driving myself crazy with all of these extra tasks that keep getting thrown my way, I have found that my Comfort zone is definitely with having a list in my hand. So here goes nothing... School List: 1. Secure all items for student raffle  2. Purchase a receipt book. 3. Purchase raffle tickets. 4. Purchase items for drink sale. 5. Secure locations for my kids to finish their community projects within the school. 6. Turn in Grades 7. Turn in Lesson Plans Farm List:  1. Purchase hay for the remainder few months until the field start to regrow. 2. Be on the lookout for a new Billy for or breeding program 3. Check daily to see if the geese have hatched. 4. Administer warmer to all those who are currently milking. 5. Check all eye lids for anemia/ administer proper medications 6. Document said the medication's in booklets. Home List:  1. Schedule all pediatric appointments for Taylor in the upcoming months. 2. Women's health check as well. 3....

      My poor toddler has struggled with RSV for days and that's why I haven't really posted regularly. She needs me to hold and cuddle with her. She's been pitiful and in a lot of pain. Along with RSV she has double ear infections that seem to be driving her crazy.      The meds that she has been on for days don't seem to be changing anything. I will be promptly calling the pediatrician in the morning for further assistance with this matter. Taylor cannot simply go on like this. She is cranky due to pain and suffering. I have tried a variety of over the counter medications to see if they will help, but nothing touches it. So, no sleep and lack of patience as been my ultimate downfall. We even took her to the ER today with them basically stating: we've done all we can do. She has to work through it.      Here is to another night of fitful sleep. Send my baby some positive vibes if you can. She needs all of them she can get. RSV sucks! Her wet...

      This month has thus far been overly abundant. Butters gave birth to an overly beautiful doe that is a keeper! I was beyond impressed with her first kidding season and she has made an exceptional momma. With the good also comes the bad... Miracle, didn't really have the same happy ending. Her one and only kid didn't make it. She kidded late in the night and we were not there to assist her in her first kidding session. Her baby did not live and she's heart broken.      The only positive that came out of Miracle's loss was her allowing our other baby goats to openly feed from her when she returned to the herd.      My husband and I have also banned together to drop the weight. I think having a support system will go a long way. So here goes nothing... Stats:  227 (I gained weight, and I'm beyond angry at myself) Average step count per day: 6788 Goal.... (200lbs)  BTW: I don't want to talk about what my country has recently d...

           On the coldest night of this winter season came about two of the most beautiful babies we have had thus far be born on our farm. Late last night I just had a feeling that Honey would go into labor. She had acted beyond strange and was extra affectionate.     With flashlight in tow, my husband and I made the trek down to check on the goats. Lo and behold, we had to be beautiful babies be born. Hello world, meet, Huck and Harmony. Honey did an amazing job and I couldn't be more proud of our two newest members of our farm family. They were both up and moving this morning. My husband sent me this lovely picture of our proud mama and babies.      I was hoping that she would hold out until this cold weather left us, but like with every doe, her body has a mind of its own.  PS. My husband hated the names so Harmony is now....... Helga!

      I find the title ironic in itself, because this book is a lie as a whole. The author left us mid story at the end of the book, which completely infuriates me to no end. The idea is there, but the author just couldn't execute the foundation that she so desperately built.      I trudged through the book hoping it would pick and get better, but that was futile. I would not recommend this book to anyone. I would love to have had a story that explored more of the world of edem. Scholte just missed the mark.      Did the editors not read the book in its entirety? I can see why the Good Reads website rates this book so low. I normally do not succumb to looking up ratings, but I just had to see if anyone had the same opinion.      I would rate this book a 2 out of 5 stars. It should really be a one, but hopefully someone will pick up this book's ground work and expand on it. This is not how I wanted my weekend to start. 414 pages...

      My step count for the month has rose a little bit. As you can see, there are days I do not wear my Apple Watch at all. But my step count is steadily climbing. I see this as progress. Honestly, after my appointment on Monday, it's really hard to focus on any positives. When you try your best, but still get beat down at each appointment it really gets demoralizing.     I guess I will just keep chipping away at progress and hopefully reap the results in the near future. There's not much to say on this point. I am still motivated, but I kinda need someone in my corner as well. If I'm telling the doctors things that I am doing to change, there should be a little bit of a positive vibe radiating from them. My goal for this week is to try to make sure each day I am above 7000 steps. I really need to work on closing all three rings each day.     I wish Apple had a way of having competitions with people worldwide instead of just who you are friends with. ...