Somedays
Today, I realized that I cannot do it all. I have so much on my plate that it is tipping over and I'm ill and cranky all the time. Getting around four hours of sleep per night is slowly draining me. Mom told me Taylor didn't choose to come into this world, but honestly I didn't pick to do this basically alone either. I have no family unit to help with anything. Somedays... I wish I could disappear just for a moment to take a breather. Do other moms feel burned out too? Is this normal? I cannot even go to therapy because I have no one to watch her during my sessions. I haven't been since I battled PPD like my life depended on it. Somedays... I just want more. More family, more friends, more connection beyond my four walls. All I have is my 30 minute reading sessions at night. It doesn't always do the trick. I'll be talking to my doctor about all of this next week, if I can get someone to watch Taylor. If not, she will be going with me. I'm not mis...