Late Night Revelations

     Once again, I find myself sitting and rocking my child. This was typed via voice to text applications. Taylor is wide awake and ready to play and I'm barely holding on to my sanity. I desperately need some sleep. We've been up for 2.5 hours and she isn't showing any sign of tiring out. 

    Tonight, I realize that one day I will miss these days. One day she will not need me to stay up with her to sooth her back to sleep. One day she will move on and raise her own family. I hope she does this with her own children. I hope I'm making a big enough positive impact that she doesn't have to heal from her childhood the way I had to. I'm breaking the cycle of substance abuse and I'm going to leave her pathway to get further in life than I have. The goal is to raise a child who can flourish without you, but for now she's my small babe and I will continue to thrive on little to no sleep. These baggy eyes will fade eventually. 

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