Lonely

     Lonely is the person who is in a marriage but never gets to see their spouse. Lonely is being surrounded by people every day but still have that deep seek feeling of being alone. No one knows what is truly going on inside their head and no one really cares. 

    I think I'm at the point in my life where I'm just lonely....   I spend a majority of my time either at work or with my child. It's really weird to put it into words, and I don't want to sound like I'm complaining. We work opposite shifts and at this point my friends at work know me on a deeper level than my spouse. He sees me a total of ten to twelve hours per week, so our bond has also dwindled. We used to spend evenings together after Taylor had fallen asleep. Now, I spend that last hours buried in a book to avoid my own thoughts. Could this be depression again, but with a slightly different mask? 

    Don't worry.... 

    If it gets to that point... I'll start therapy again. I just need some social time or maybe just some time to gather my thoughts. It's just weird to be in my late thirties and be totally isolated. Just me and my toddler against the world. 

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