Update

     Mom is home resting, but her eye sight is in and out. Her headaches are incessantly aggravating her, but she is adjusting. I don't know what the next few weeks holds for my family, but I know one thing; we will get through this. 

    Today I pretended everything was okay. I got up and went to work as normal, but in the back of my mind all I could think about was the what ifs. Stress ate at me all day. The "not knowing" is killing me along with the impending dread that is coursing through my veins. It's hard to see a love one go through this. There are no words of comfort to take away the pain or to ease their wondering minds. There is no guided steps to take when dealing with their emotion turmoil. 

    One day at a time. I have no leave to use, so I will be working as many days as possible until she needs me here. Thinking ahead I need to have a plan or at least a few steps. The flood of calls has also made it hard to process what mom is going through as well. 

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