Back To School?

     Every year I have this same debate. Why post and start back to school shopping so early? It's still three weeks away and I'm already getting back to school news from work as well. I still need these three weeks. Every hour, minute, and second.  I'm not exaggerating this one bit.

    I'm just now getting where I can sleep in past 6:30 AM. My body had adjusted to getting up before five every day that getting to sleep in is a rare occurrence for me. I am also being able to fully enjoy myself and read a few books this summer. I don't know if I'm ready to go back and hit the grind 100%. Sometimes I think the mental break of summer really does benefit me.  

    What am I going to miss most about summer? I'm gonna miss my kid. I only get 4 to 5 hours with her every afternoon if I'm lucky on an average school day. Every adult has to work so I know everyone has to go through this. I'm just so overwhelmed with the thought that I won't get to see her. The stress of missing all her little moments really does scare me. How will she do with potty training when I go back to work? What did she have for breakfast? Did she have someone sitting and read to her? When she woke up did she look for me first thing in the morning? I know she stays with my husband while I'm at work but we do stuff completely different. Sometimes I think it's lucky that he works afternoon shifts. He gets to spend the majority of the day with her, while I have the afternoons. 

    I will miss our early morning snuggles and making toast. I have to work. We cannot survive on one income alone. We have talked about it extensively, and it just isn't feasible. Even with all the farm stuff we do, there is no way we could keep up with the few bill we accumulate each month. So work.... HERE I COME. Let the three week count down begin. 

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