New Year New Me?

     As strange as it may sound I think every year is a new chance to make some changes. This year brought many highs and lows, so here's to hoping the new year will bring about some massive change and positive vibes. 


Reflections 

     I count the birth of my children as a blessing. Although only one made it, it was still an experience that will forever humble me. Taylor is beyond any thing I could have imagined. The pregnancy itself was a tremendous accomplishment in itself. I was told for years not to have children, and making it out with one is a miracle all of its own. 

     2023 has taught me patience and pride. No one is above their own actions and every action has its own reaction. I believe everything comes at its own time. I want to get back to my previous pre-pregnancy weight. This is something I'll have to work on each day. Nothing comes quickly or easily. 

     Husbands deserve to be cherished too. He has been my rock through this entire process and he need praise thrown his way as well. At the moment he is feeding Taylor so I can work on my blog and emails from work. Your partner matters too! He may not be the bread winner, but he provides in other ways. I'm not sure I would be where I am today without the aid of his love and attention. I plan to make a point to celebrate our next Anniversary with finesse. December 22nd came and went before either of us knew it. 2024 will be different. I will plan ahead and we will have more date nights and outings.   

     Those grandparents need some praise thrown their way too! My momma has been a constant rock and source of support. There have been nights where she dropped everything to come give me a much needed break. My child has the best support system anyone could ask for. My in-laws are there too, but not as involved as my mom. I know without a doubt I could ask them to help with Taylor and the would make an effort to do so. 

     Not all family members have access to my child. If I have a toxic relationship with them, they are not privy to seeing or interacting with Taylor. Burning bridges is okay in this instance. I do not regret any of those actions. So the "new me" will be continuing said behaviors.  Not all family has be be blood and I will focus on the ones who are there for me now. I have two best friends that are more "family" than any blood relations. 

     Just because someone is elderly doesn't excuse rude nasty behavior. This has been a hard lesson for me personally. I have cut family members out of the picture. I do not care that they have no one to rely on. Maybe said family members should have thought about that before inserting themselves where they should have been. 

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