Life of the Party

    I took a short cut through a back road, but it really wasn't a "short cut." I would have shaved off 30 minutes of my drive home, but I got behind a semi who refused to drive the speed limit around the curves. The speed limit was 30 and he wouldn't get over 15 mph.      Passing zones you say? I tried that too. He would drive in center of the road, so no one could get around him. I was pissed. I beeped my hone a few times, but that was just to express my anger. The Range Rover behind me decided to flip me off and incessantly beep their hone for over 30 minutes after this incident. When we finally got to the freeway I passed the truck, beeped my hone, and drove on. These girls in the Range Rover pulled up beside me filming me as the driver cut over on me. They were screaming profanity. There are some crazy people out there. I just smiled and waved, as they continued to follow me for miles. I needed gas so I pulled into my favorite store.     ...

Fear Fear traps Fear hides Fear hates, but doesn't discriminate Fear has no color or creed Fear is decided upon us Fear is ingrained Fear is there Fear looks different to everyone Fear has no boundaries Fear seeps into the unknown Fear is always there Fear must be acknowledged Fear must be faced Fear can be overcome Fear has no exact face 

      It's just my luck! I went to a local swimming hole, and some outsiders have bought the land and posted up no trespassing signs! I don't have a single summer memory in my childhood that doesn't include splashing around at that lake spot. I own several acres of land, and I would never dream of posting it. I let people come and go as they please.       I'm really going to miss swimming at "my spot." I asked the land owner if I could still go there with permission. She just didn't say no, she said HELL NO!  I asked nicely. Can she just move back to Florida with her boundaries and signs? I don't understand why people move in and change things....

Dieting    It's harder than I thought it would be!  I'm a few pounds down, and it has been a hard road thus far. I still feel like there has to be an easier way. I'm still fighting with the Cpap machine as well. I called in yesterday to get some tips and tricks from their call in services. The man, Dan suggested that I wear it about an hour before I lay down. I will be trying this in the coming days.

Social Media  Social media has taught us how to hide  its a new wave or tide  People have lost their ability to talk  now all they do is cyber stalk Emotions are freely shared Like someone could actually care Sensory overload  Our pictures will never get old  Over exploiting who we are  Social media leaves us with scars  Aren't you always attached to your device  Never wondering if you need profession advice

   I'm sad to say that my last day house sitting was yesterday. I'm going to really miss the solitude and safety of being isolated. Maybe I'll get to escape again soon.  I have spent the morning on Facebook surfing through the various videos and posts. It's a different pace than what I had adjusted to. 

Solitude Silence is what the soul craves but the brain will not behave Every noise could be something scary Every situation seems hairy Solitude brings up thoughts we often hide Our dark side No one will guess what we're thinking No one will see us sinking We devour this time as it passes us by We will be forgotten like clouds in the sky Onward to see where we will go We'll always go with the flow

    I'm still here!  I cannot wait for them to return from their cruise. I'm not cut out to be alone all the time. I don't deal well when I have no one to communicate with. I wonder if other people have this same issue?      Today the goose chased me all the way to my car. I have to admit that it does scare me a little. The very large bruise on my hand is from battle scars with this same damn bird. I don't think I'd make a good farmer.

      I think blogging is an outlet! It's calming and satisfying at the same time. I'm thankful for these moments of clarity. I spend so much time doing things for everyone else, but this is specifically for me. I have been looking for other blogs to read. Do you guys have an recommendations? 

      The've been gone for two days now, and I don't know if I'm doing a good job with all the animals.  Mark my words "I'm never having any geese!"  I love their ducks, but one goose keeps trying to attack me. I have to walk with a stick to defend myself. This morning he chased me all the way to the steps. I think that is the fastest I've moved in forever!       It's my first experience with parrots, and I love them! They are both so sweet and gentle. As I walk by their cages, they call out to me. They remind me of loving dogs in a way. I'm still not used to being alone all the time. It has given me time to think about things. Instead of watching a house I'm finding out more about who I am without my family. It's basically like taking a vacation by myself!