Month 4.5

      There are all these things our children are supposed to be doing, so what happens when your child doesn't meet the milestones? Not everyone develops at the same rate. Month 4.5 can be summed up in one word, "fear." 

     To put it simply. I fear everything. I plan ahead and scout out the potential dangers and risks. For the first time in years I even got the flu shot to help avoid potential sickness. I didn't want Taylor to catch it from me. My child hasn't been meeting all of her milestones, and I fear that it is something I have done wrong as a parent. The grasps of postpartum depression was a real battle for me. I had to attend therapy sessions and even be put on medication for a short while. I have recently been released from both. This is a set back for me personally. I want everything for Taylor, but I do not know what I have done or haven't done to help her reach this. 

     As a parent, I'm constantly told that it isn't my fault, but they are not the ones sitting in the doctor's office having to answer the various questions and see the doctor's puzzled face. She should be tracking well, but she still struggles with following an object across the room. She was in the NICU for a while and had some major setbacks. Could this be why she hasn't reached these goals yet?

    Any and all advice would be much appreciated. 


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