Life of the Party

Football It's the sound of the loudest fan It's the loud music of the band It's the intense moment of the game It's the moment of instant fame It's the blood, sweat, and tears It's the moment of no fears It's the coach screaming plays Its the long practices most days This is a work of progress. I will try to remember to post the final piece. 

    This school year is going to be great! We are off to a wonderful start, but I'm stuck at home for a few days. I'm super upset that I'm missing work, but kidney stones really hurt. I tried to go to work yesterday, and I was sent home.       I hate missing school days. My students will get behind without me there to guide them. I wonder if all teachers feel this way when they cannot be there? This feeling of guilt has washed over me and will not go away. It's the beginning of the school year, and I need to be there to uphold classroom structure and a safe learning environment.     What I've done today- - Checked my student's blog accounts to read about what is happening during their literature circles  - Graded last week's papers and provided student feedback - Planned for student stations to begin on Thursday

   School starts back tomorrow for teachers, and it's bitter sweet. I miss my students, peers, and schedule, but I really enjoyed my time off. I logged into our school system today, and my students have not been placed in my classes yet. I'm excited to see what this school year will bring. I will have more time to devote to lesson plans, because I will not longer be in grad classes. I'll actually get to use some of the information I gathered during school.     I had a student send me welcome back messages through my school email.  I was excited to know that they miss their teachers too! I don't completely disconnect with my students during the summer, but I do use our school related apps to answer questions that they send me.  Goodbye Goodbye to the lazy late mornings  Goodbye to the leisure times wasted on reading  Goodbye to the social media apps that always keep my attention  Goodbye to the lake and all its contents Goodbye to...

    When I think about summer, I often think about the lake, camp fires, and marshmallows. I'm sad to say that this summer has been filled with none of these precious delights. I've missed the past summers of fun and excitement. Mom just doesn't feel like getting out and doing things, and most of my friends have children. I really try to avoid those situations where children are involved. I have to deal with them enough at school. 

Early Morning  It is in the early morning hours  That you can truly see the beautiful flowers The dew is still dripping off the vines The berries are ready to make some fine wines  The sun is still hidden  and at this time sunscreen is forbidden  The birds sing their happy tune  For it is the last day of June The trees have their hand outstretched toward the sky Oh how I wish I could climb that high The smell of fresh cut grass Brings out my dog's sass

    I spent the early hours of the morning taking a long walk, before the heat takes over. It was both relaxing and peaceful. I plan to spend the day at the lake! I'm excited to sunbathe and be outside. I cannot believe a whole week has passed by this fast. 

    I took a short cut through a back road, but it really wasn't a "short cut." I would have shaved off 30 minutes of my drive home, but I got behind a semi who refused to drive the speed limit around the curves. The speed limit was 30 and he wouldn't get over 15 mph.      Passing zones you say? I tried that too. He would drive in center of the road, so no one could get around him. I was pissed. I beeped my hone a few times, but that was just to express my anger. The Range Rover behind me decided to flip me off and incessantly beep their hone for over 30 minutes after this incident. When we finally got to the freeway I passed the truck, beeped my hone, and drove on. These girls in the Range Rover pulled up beside me filming me as the driver cut over on me. They were screaming profanity. There are some crazy people out there. I just smiled and waved, as they continued to follow me for miles. I needed gas so I pulled into my favorite store.     ...

Fear Fear traps Fear hides Fear hates, but doesn't discriminate Fear has no color or creed Fear is decided upon us Fear is ingrained Fear is there Fear looks different to everyone Fear has no boundaries Fear seeps into the unknown Fear is always there Fear must be acknowledged Fear must be faced Fear can be overcome Fear has no exact face 

      It's just my luck! I went to a local swimming hole, and some outsiders have bought the land and posted up no trespassing signs! I don't have a single summer memory in my childhood that doesn't include splashing around at that lake spot. I own several acres of land, and I would never dream of posting it. I let people come and go as they please.       I'm really going to miss swimming at "my spot." I asked the land owner if I could still go there with permission. She just didn't say no, she said HELL NO!  I asked nicely. Can she just move back to Florida with her boundaries and signs? I don't understand why people move in and change things....

Dieting    It's harder than I thought it would be!  I'm a few pounds down, and it has been a hard road thus far. I still feel like there has to be an easier way. I'm still fighting with the Cpap machine as well. I called in yesterday to get some tips and tricks from their call in services. The man, Dan suggested that I wear it about an hour before I lay down. I will be trying this in the coming days.