Life of the Party

    I took a short cut through a back road, but it really wasn't a "short cut." I would have shaved off 30 minutes of my drive home, but I got behind a semi who refused to drive the speed limit around the curves. The speed limit was 30 and he wouldn't get over 15 mph.      Passing zones you say? I tried that too. He would drive in center of the road, so no one could get around him. I was pissed. I beeped my hone a few times, but that was just to express my anger. The Range Rover behind me decided to flip me off and incessantly beep their hone for over 30 minutes after this incident. When we finally got to the freeway I passed the truck, beeped my hone, and drove on. These girls in the Range Rover pulled up beside me filming me as the driver cut over on me. They were screaming profanity. There are some crazy people out there. I just smiled and waved, as they continued to follow me for miles. I needed gas so I pulled into my favorite store.     ...

Fear Fear traps Fear hides Fear hates, but doesn't discriminate Fear has no color or creed Fear is decided upon us Fear is ingrained Fear is there Fear looks different to everyone Fear has no boundaries Fear seeps into the unknown Fear is always there Fear must be acknowledged Fear must be faced Fear can be overcome Fear has no exact face 

      It's just my luck! I went to a local swimming hole, and some outsiders have bought the land and posted up no trespassing signs! I don't have a single summer memory in my childhood that doesn't include splashing around at that lake spot. I own several acres of land, and I would never dream of posting it. I let people come and go as they please.       I'm really going to miss swimming at "my spot." I asked the land owner if I could still go there with permission. She just didn't say no, she said HELL NO!  I asked nicely. Can she just move back to Florida with her boundaries and signs? I don't understand why people move in and change things....

Dieting    It's harder than I thought it would be!  I'm a few pounds down, and it has been a hard road thus far. I still feel like there has to be an easier way. I'm still fighting with the Cpap machine as well. I called in yesterday to get some tips and tricks from their call in services. The man, Dan suggested that I wear it about an hour before I lay down. I will be trying this in the coming days.

Social Media  Social media has taught us how to hide  its a new wave or tide  People have lost their ability to talk  now all they do is cyber stalk Emotions are freely shared Like someone could actually care Sensory overload  Our pictures will never get old  Over exploiting who we are  Social media leaves us with scars  Aren't you always attached to your device  Never wondering if you need profession advice

   I'm sad to say that my last day house sitting was yesterday. I'm going to really miss the solitude and safety of being isolated. Maybe I'll get to escape again soon.  I have spent the morning on Facebook surfing through the various videos and posts. It's a different pace than what I had adjusted to. 

Solitude Silence is what the soul craves but the brain will not behave Every noise could be something scary Every situation seems hairy Solitude brings up thoughts we often hide Our dark side No one will guess what we're thinking No one will see us sinking We devour this time as it passes us by We will be forgotten like clouds in the sky Onward to see where we will go We'll always go with the flow

    I'm still here!  I cannot wait for them to return from their cruise. I'm not cut out to be alone all the time. I don't deal well when I have no one to communicate with. I wonder if other people have this same issue?      Today the goose chased me all the way to my car. I have to admit that it does scare me a little. The very large bruise on my hand is from battle scars with this same damn bird. I don't think I'd make a good farmer.

      I think blogging is an outlet! It's calming and satisfying at the same time. I'm thankful for these moments of clarity. I spend so much time doing things for everyone else, but this is specifically for me. I have been looking for other blogs to read. Do you guys have an recommendations? 

      The've been gone for two days now, and I don't know if I'm doing a good job with all the animals.  Mark my words "I'm never having any geese!"  I love their ducks, but one goose keeps trying to attack me. I have to walk with a stick to defend myself. This morning he chased me all the way to the steps. I think that is the fastest I've moved in forever!       It's my first experience with parrots, and I love them! They are both so sweet and gentle. As I walk by their cages, they call out to me. They remind me of loving dogs in a way. I'm still not used to being alone all the time. It has given me time to think about things. Instead of watching a house I'm finding out more about who I am without my family. It's basically like taking a vacation by myself! 

Dreams As the day comes to a close, and the storm slowly creeps in I think of all the places I've never been Depression takes all it can find It takes over the blood that should bind The thunder shudders in this distance do you think one day I'll miss this A battle fought everyday never knowing what to exactly say The only relief that finds me here Is to know that the end is so near The wind picks up her pace knowing she will not finish this race The people who think they know all will get to see the rise and the fall Dream deeply as the rain hits the tin Think no more of your previous sin The storm breaths inside you Don't be that bird that never flew don't trust everything they'll say because they never knew you dreamed of this day 

I have a loyal follower from Portugal. I just want to thank you for always reading my posts!  It would be even better if you would leave me a message!

    I often ponder what it's like to live a different life. I wonder how other people make it seem so easy,  and all I can do is fail. It's strange to be away from the house and my normal routine. I'm not used to being away for any amount of time, and I'm by myself. I never really go anywhere without friends or family.  This will be a time for me to really get away. I'm both excited and scared at the same time.     We are creatures of habit, and I'm ready to see what this will mean for me especially. The solitude alone may break me down, but I'm ready to try!  I'll get some good reading time in and some me time as well. I'll try to keep you guys posted on how things are going.

Night The darkness surrounds us there is no place to hide In the darkness deep inside A heart beats fast, but no one can help another story and yelp The cool air makes up wrap up tight I'm going to sleep and I'm giving up this fight I can hear it settling down Sometimes I wish I lived closer to town My dog begins to growl As I hear that opening howl The coyotes sing their mensing tune It's just another night in June

              I want to first of all thank the Aarons in Sylva NC for great customer service. The men who came out and delivered our stuff was super sweet! I'm thankful for stores like this that allow us to make payments. Who can really afford all that stuff at once? It's the little things in life that make me happy!

    I will be spending my second week of my summer vacation house sitting for my friend. What have I got myself into?  I think it will be exciting getting to take care of all their animals, but I also worry about failing. What is the proper protocol for house sitting? What duties must I preform? This will be my second time actually doing this. The first time was terrible! The lady I house sat for left me a horrible mess, and she didn't even offer to pay me. Her animals were nasty and hateful too!      I guess I'll find out tomorrow when I make the 1 1/2 hour drive to his house!  I promise to keep you guys posted. 

Hereditary        I love horror movies, but last night was a complete waste of time! This movie's trailer depicted  a thrilling movie that would leave you on the edge of your seat. Well, that was a complete lie. The first hour was so boring that I nodded off. Girl's night is supposed to be about watching good movies and having fun, but honestly this movie was false advertisement.       The ending will leave you asking questions, because so many things did not line up with the plot. I think this is my last time watching anything made by this director! 

Social Media       I think all forms of social media share aspects of each other, so what is the point. Facebook is a think of the past, and it seems to reach toward the older population. The younger generations want Instagram and Snapchat. They're basically all the same.        I have all three apps and enjoy each one of them. We over share as a population, and we have become desensitized as a nation. My students don't even react to dramatic events, so I feel as if we are over exposed to so many tragedies. We have become numb to reality. 

Empty Empty is the feeling of no remorse  Empty is the smell of stale bread that makes toast  Empty is the state of not caring  Empty is pity  Empty looks like depression Empty is a state of mind Empty is a place of darkness Empty is being alone  Empty is being left behind Empty could mean life has no meaning  Empty looks like a dark abyss  Empty soaks up all your energy 

NEW LIFE And so it has begun  we will lose all our fun a baby soon to be born a life style we will have to morn  I'm so excited to be an aunt  I'll have wishes that I have to grant Being an Aunt will be intense  the journey has already proved to be immense  I'll stand by your side  Even if you want to hide I'll be the friend you always needed instead of the ones we heeded 

Missing You Most days I sit and think of you in the car listening to Evan's Blue  It's the band we used to jam out to It's just not the same without you I finally deleted your messages today  because I had nothing else to say You're gone and not coming back  I still feel like a fallen down shack  I placed flowers on your grave  I stood there and tried to be brave  As tears fell down my face  I tried to remember my place  Friendship was lost and it was at a great cost I placed blue flowers by your side  tears of sadness I had to hide I still miss our cheesy jokes  and the laughing pokes  I wish I could have said goodbye  but then again you had to die I hope heaven is a nice place to be  may one day I'll get to see 

        My school took our students to see the new Star Wars movie the last week of school. I was pleasantly surprised that I liked the movie!  It was the first movie of the series that I have actually watched, and I believe it could be a stand alone movie without the series. My students seemed to all love it!  I think I might spend some time this summer watching all the movies!

2 Days     Teachers only have two days of work left, and I'm super excited to start my summer break! I don't have any real big plans. I would really love to go to the beach, but that doesn't seem like it's going to happen. I was asked to house sit for a friend, so that is one week taken.      This school year passed by so quickly! I still cannot believe I finished graduate school a few weeks ago. I still wake up panicked that I have forgot to do some homework. Maybe this feeling of urgency will diminish as time passes. I looked into several other options too. I think I might go back and get my AIG certification. This coming school year I will be teaching advanced English for the 8th grade. I hope I'm up to the task.           I still stress out over my ability to write! I still find many mistakes, but blogs are meant to be fun and entertaining. I'm thankful for all my viewers!  I just wish some of you would actu...